It Was Me

They say that confession is good for the soul. So I have to confess, it was me.

I’m the reason we are in this mess right now. I know that God is the God of love but I forgot that he is also the righteous judge. I don’t know if this is a judgement from God but it sure feels like it to me. Oh, I want to blame everybody else but I can’t. If we look at biblical history God’s judgement always begins with His people. I am God’s child. When I go astray He does what He needs to do to bring me back. I’m sorry I did this to you.

I have allowed myself to become apathetic toward the church and people.
I’ve walked too close to that fine line that separates us from the world.
Sometimes worship is just entertainment and I’m not really engaged.
Sometimes I check out during the message because I’ve heard it all before.

God has called us to be a peculiar people, to be different from the world. But……

I want everyone to like me.
My heart is hard and cynical.
I watch TV shows that push the edge of decency.
I think about this virus only because it could affect me but I don’t think about the children that are killed every day through abortion.
I wonder if there will be enough food and toilet paper at the store for me but I don’t think about the people that go hungry every day or who are homeless.
I pray but sometimes it is just repetition, not to connect with God but because I’m supposed to pray or I want something from him.
I haven’t truly put God first in everything.

So I am sorry! This mess is on me. But if you can relate to what I’ve confessed then maybe it is on you too!

Thankfully our God is the God of second chances. So I am going to seek His face and confess my apathy and humble myself before Him. I’m going to work to get back to my first love. I want to be clay in the Master’s hands to be used for His Glory!

Will you join me?

Fellowship ChurchApril 7, 2020

It Was Me

I have allowed myself to become apathetic toward the church and people.

I’ve walked too close to that fine line that separates us from the world.

Sometimes worship is just entertainment and I’m not really engaged.

Sometimes I check out during the message because I’ve heard it all before.

I want everyone to like me.

My heart is hard and cynical.

I watch TV shows that push the edge of decency.

I think about this virus only because it could affect me but I don’t think about the children that are killed every day through abortion.

I wonder if there will be enough food and toilet paper at the store for me but I don’t think about the people that go hungry every day or who are homeless.

I pray but sometimes it is just repetition, not to connect with God but because I’m supposed to pray or I want something from him.

I haven’t truly put God first in everything.

Thankfully our God is the God of second chances. So I am going to seek His face and confess my apathy and humble myself before Him. I’m going to work to get back to my first love. I want to be clay in the Master’s hands to be used for His Glory!